how should i tell you?

you wouldn’t believe me, but i never wanted to miss you like this, my longing for you overpowered everything in me, until reality had to let go of me; dreams have now become my only safe place to chase my desire to see you.

how could i tell you? i wrote songs for you, and my friends praised them, unaware of how my skin was being consumed by sadness and loneliness.

how could i tell you? the thoughts of you haunted me so aggressively that i even made friends with doctors and several painkillers to help me sleep at night.

i never wanted this, but i miss you, i still do, and i always will. and that’s where it hurts the most